We're still kind of on a break but I have collected myself now. You may, gentle Reader, remember in my last post but one that there was a general hoppiness of Labradors' back legs at our house. Harki's other three legs had rallied well to their arthritis treatment, but her left back leg was definitely more hoppy. We went to see Dr Marion and she felt Harki's knee, but Harki was a bit nervous and it was hard to wriggle the joint so she stayed at the hospital to be sedated and have her knee wriggled when she was relaxed. It was, therefore, more than unexpected when Dr Tim rang to say they had moved on a step further and taken X-rays and that there was something dark in the picture to be worried about. He cut open her little leg and took a sample of the bone for pathology, but when I went in to pick her up later that evening he said he wasn't hopeful. He desperately wanted everything to be fine, but he told me that sadly he felt sure it wasn't.
So we went home and then on Saturday I popped out for an hour and I returned to find Harki's wound wide open: she had removed her own stitches. We went back to Hospital and she sat in the surgery and I patted her while Dr Tim gave her some local and then stitched her up again: what a very good girl she is. We had to start the ten days all over again. He told me that the results were back and they were not good. It is extremely rare for Labradors, but Harki has a horrid cancer in her bone. She's 10 this year and so too old for amputation and even though we caught it very early, it is too awful for her to endure other radical treatment for an uncertain result.
I didn't want to make her wear the anti-stitch eating collar at all, so I just stayed home from Saturday till Thursday when I absolutely had to go out. Harki is such a good girl that she wore the collar with great panache. Peri tried it on and had it off again in two seconds flat!! I think she's wishing it would disappear in this picture.
I think we've skipped the first six stages of Grief, after a good cry with Dr Tim and then MrsDrWho, and we have moved straight to Acceptance. We have a little time, maybe till the Winter comes, and so we are just being happy every day to have time together. There are treats and pats and little walks every day for Harki and Peri and we are just being Glad. Playing The Glad Game and being happy that we have had nine glorious years of Harki colouring our world with sunshine every day.
I have closed my comments again, because at the slightest hint of sympathy I am likely to be unable to be happy. (Happy emails are very welcome though!!!) And we want to be happy, not in denial, but just happy to enjoy the time we have together. We are looking forward to welcoming a new puppy into our lives very soon, so that Peri won't have to be lonely and by herself.
So I'll be around, and I have to start getting out and about in the real world too. Harki had her stitches out yesterday and wagged her tail at Dr Tim and he gave her a big cuddle and a treat, so she can safely be left with Peri, home alone, and I can go out and participate in Life again. On the homefront it has been hot and so there has been lots of fun in the paddle pool and playing with the hose.